Alfa (Ellie) White - Online Memorial Website

Memories surround me
But sadness has found me
I'd do anything for more time
Never before has someone meant more
And I can't get you out of my mind
There is so much that I don't understand
But I know

You're dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You're dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you're dancing with the angels

You had love for your family
Love for all people
Love for the Father, and Son
Your heart will be heard
In your unspoken words
Through generations to come
There is so much that I don't understand
But I know

To an Angel on Earth, Cheri..."E-boy!" /

To my precious momma,

It's been two years now. But it hasn't gotten easier yet. I miss you more and love you more each and every day. There's no place I go that I don't see something that reminds me of you.
I was at Wal Mart a few days ago and walked by the house slippers and it was hard for me not to buy you a pair. That's what I'm supposed to be doing. And then I see your favorite candy or the pictures that you love to color.

I'm so lost without you. I need you to know something. About a month before you passed away, I was in the hospital for a few days. I know the little girl in you didn't understand why I wasn't there to see you. I was calling the nursing home everyday and they told me you were doing good. I know the day before I went to the hospital you were in your wheelchair and we ate a piece of pizza and you drank your Mountain Dew. Then when I came back, you were almost gone.

I need you to know that I didn't abandon you Mom. I don't know why the nursing home didn't feed you or turn you while I was gone. They never agreed with your oncologist or me about doing chemo. I'm so sorry some of the nurses were so mean to you. I tried to have you moved. Most of them were wonderful. Just a few that was really rude and refused to turn you so you wouldn't get that awful infection on your back and the one who kept taking your pain patches.

Alot of people want me to do something about what happened at the nursing 

home. I have struggled with this decision for two years now. I had your memorial service there to help heal the bad feelings. All your friends were there. Even the ones in the nursing home. I didn't see those two nurses. I don't think I can go through everything again Mom. I feel like I should just let your memory now rest in peace and not drag all that stuff back up from the moment you were first diagnosed with sarcoma. I wish you could tell me what to do. So all I can do is just let it go because it won't bring you back to me. I hope you can understand and won't be mad at me. My brother and my dad and my kids know that I took the very best care of you from the moment you had your stroke. And those that didn't agree with the decision for chemo were not the ones who took care of you from day one of your stroke. I went with the advice of the oncologist and that's what mattered. When it was time not to continue, I listened to them. You were having such an awful time, I couldn't make you go on. I felt like you were telling me it was time to let you go. I had alot of help from your preacher and lots of prayers to come to that decision. I know it was the right thing to do, but it still doesn't make it easier to let you go.

I know there were angels there with you at the end. You were talking to them. I know they are with you now. Not alot has changed since you've been gone except now you have another great-grandbaby. Her name is Vivian Grace. She is Sophie's sister. You would love her so much Mom. She's just as adorable as Sophie. Lindsay's is going to have a baby in April.

So Mom watch over us all until we meet again. I'll love you forever and always.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING MOMMA / Cheri (Daughter)

Dear Momma,

Hope you had a happy Thanksgiving Day in Heaven. This was your 2nd Thanksgiving in Heaven.

I thought of you all day today while preparing Thanksgiving Dinner. With each thing I made, I could remember everything you had ever taught me. They were all your recipies.

Sophie and I put up the Christmas tree last night and I just thought how much you would have enjoyed it. I miss you and love you now, always & forever

Cheri,
I couldn't say all that I wanted earlier. Your Mom was so special, just seeing her smile and the way her eyes would lightup when we would go out to eat is what I will remember the most. She was a real fighter and I know she stayed with us as long as she could. I hope you know how lucky you are to have had such a special Mom. From the first time I met her I just fell in love with her personality and free spirit. She may have lost her speech but she knew how to get her message across! Please remember that you did everything possible and sometimes impossible for her and that

she loved you so much. Try to keep all the good times in your mind and let go of these past few days. If you need anything just call or drop by. My Mom is here for you also.
Love You like a Sister,
Debby

11/4/07 - A special graphic for you on your anniversary / Stephanie ~. Daughter Of Anita Yeo (angel friend )

I know how hard it must be to miss your Mom. Really try to think of the good memories and also allow yourself to go through all your feelings and thoughts. Try not to hold them inside. Your Mom was such a special lady and will always love you. And she'll always be watching over you, no matter where you are. God bless you!
Love always, Steph